Before you start thinking you are suffering from depression and need to make a doctors appointment as soon as possible, ask yourself do you feel like this all the time or do you feel this after you have spent time with certain people if the answer is the latter then you are not clinically depressed you are depressed due to the assholes in your life.
As quoted by William Gibson:
“Before you diagnose yourself with depression or low self-esteem, first make sure you are not, in fact, just surrounded by assholes.”
Before you get into the vibe of beating yourself up and thinking you need to shut yourself away from the world, take a few deep breaths and press pause.
There are many forms of depression and whilst you may be experiencing a form of depression it is not the way you think.
You’re experiencing a type of depression because you have people around you, the assholes of the world who disrupt and take your happy times away.
Depression can make you cry even when everything around you is in a happy positive place, it invokes memories that you wonder if they truly exist. You have a sense of not belonging and that you don’t deserve to be happy.
Everyone sees you as a positive loving person and they want to spend time with you, but you don’t see that you become anxious and think you’re not good enough.
There is this huge elephant in the room and it is in the form of the people who make you unhappy and lose your self-worth.
Somebody once said every single unhappiness is the same, it’s just that you think yours is the biggest one there is. And it makes sense. You’re not aware of other people’s misery; you’re too busy dealing with yours.
The only way out of this situation is to break ties with those that make you unhappy and yes, that could mean ending some friendships that you have had for years but only now see them for what they truly are.
There is nothing wrong in doing what is right for you. Long gone are the days when you get told ‘be an adult and just get along’. That has done so much damage to people being forced to feel they have to tolerate bad behavior from people as that is what is expected, and that is being an adult.
No, an adult is acknowledging what is doing you the most damage and dealing with it, and if that means removing people then that is what you must do.
As we get older our circle gets smaller anyway, that is just how life is, we change as we grow and what was once important to us is not so much anymore.
We all know the assholes if we’re honest the ones that roll their eyes when we voice our thoughts or feelings and tell us ‘just get over it’. Absolute golden opportunity to get rid of that person when they come out with that shit as if we could just get over anything in our lives, we would wouldn’t we?
Have people in your life who make the effort to spend time with you, who check in on you to make sure you’re okay, the ones who make time in their busy lives and not only be there when it suits their schedule.
If you feel like opening your pastures new option then do so, go and meet new people that bring joy into your life. Take the opportunity to try out new things, it is your life and you should damn well live it the way you want to.